那一天,我认识了死亡

生老病死。外公的离世,是我人生见证的第一个死亡。同样的感受和感想,我在小二的时候(8岁)在我的功课,“每周新闻”里记述过。小二,所认识的词汇实在不多,但是老师给我那篇作文 的评语是“文笔感人”,她还打了3三颗星星。时过境迁,我对那天所发生的事和物,却还记忆犹新。许久没写中文长篇了,希望别词不达意。:)

那是一个星期六。那个年纪,一个星期有7天,我最喜欢星期六:电视播特多的卡通片!我醒来了,在刷牙。因为中风而半身不遂的外公就坐在饭桌前;外婆在厨房,忙着准备早餐。我背向着外公,通过镜子,我一边刷牙,一边与他抬扛。

印象中的外公,重男轻女,而且非常的嘴贫,总是爱说些有的没的来气怒我,让我举例:“哎哟!莹今天这么惨啊?吃饭而已?没有KFC哦?”我总是爱反驳他,有时实在是词穷的时候,我就会用怒目瞪他。

我刷我的牙,外公继续他对我的调侃。比我年幼6年的阿妹不久后也醒了,外公很兴奋地逗她玩。我又纳罕了:对我那么坏,对阿妹就这么慈爱!我还在刷牙,刷着刷着,我灵魂出了窍,思绪去了老远。

妈妈的喊叫声把我的思绪拉回现实:“怎么爸爸昏了过去?!!阿婶,快来!”外婆吓着了,从厨房冲出来,大声喊道:“老的!你别吓我!别吓我!你不要丢下我啊!”我还在刷牙,这些情景,都是从镜子的倒影看到的。失去知觉的外公,头歪在一边,脸色慈祥。我还留意到地上有一滩尿迹,罕有的清澈。看着这一切,我的眼泪像断了线的珍珠,不断地在流。我还是小二,对死亡真的完全没有概念,但是我有种预感:这,应该就是它了。。。人们常说的,血浓于水,指的就是这样吧:我对外公虽然不算亲厚,但是生死离别的痛,还是扎到我了。

家里的大人忙成了一团。我静静地在一旁,观察,细心地记下每一个场景。眼泪,依然在流。妈妈一面哭,一面打电话通知其他的阿姨们,已经泣不成声。医生来了,宣告外公的死亡。妈妈和外婆开始号啕,我的眼泪也流得更凶。大人们不让我靠近外公,我只能在门外瞻望:哦,外公的脚板开始发黑了。

早上9点,外婆哭累了,坐在客厅的沙发上抽泣和整顿思绪。我走到电视跟前,想要看卡通。外婆说,“莹,乖,今天别开电视了。”我乖巧地点了点头。

人们说,人之将死,他们会有预感的。巧的是,外公嘱咐我的两个舅舅在那天去探望外公。这两个舅舅很没心肝的,好久没来嘘寒问暖了。 可惜,舅舅们来迟了,外公已经在另一个国度。他们到达的时候,依照习俗,跪爬着进门,都在使劲地哭。我也哭。

我所记得的情景,跳到了外公入棺。虽然被禁止靠近棺木,我还是偷偷地去瞻望了外公的遗容:他穿着寿衣,面目开始浮肿和泛着紫黑,躺在干冰之上。晚上,我带着淡淡的不安入睡:外公生前那么爱作弄我,他的魂不会来找我吧?

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